Jesus the milkman

A friend came for dinner the other night. Let’s call him Josh. He helps with the local Care Van for the homeless; last time he went out on the van, one of the other helpers said she was sick of giving coffee to people who weren’t particularly needy, and who were taking advantage of them.

Josh told me that he replied in this striking way: “You’ve forgotten the whole point of why we’re out here. We’re not here primarily to help the very neediest. We’re here to show some people that Jesus is in the world.”

I may agree or disagree with his take on Care Van policy, but his comment got me thinking again about us representing Jesus in this world. If Jesus worked at my workplace, what would that be like? How would he organise his time? How would he answer his emails? What would he chat about?

We’ve talked previously at this site about the “What would Jesus do?” (WWJD) products. One of the key problems for me with these products is that many Christians look at them and feel guilty or restrained from doing something, rather than feel inspired to imagine seriously what Jesus would do (which would usually be something unexpected, shocking, creative and positive). I’m asking you to think about the latter – what exactly would Jesus the milkman do? Or Jesus the accountant? Or Jesus the [fill in your job here]?

I want to represent Jesus in my workplace. I’m not sure how. This type of WWJD thinking may indeed lead me to feel some guilt, but there’s some guilt I need to feel. However, my intention is to move beyond that – how can we genuinely be actively Christlike in our practical, daily life? How can we show our colleagues that Jesus is in the world?

The workplace is just one aspect. Josh is facing a serious marriage breakdown – what does it mean to show his wife that Jesus is in the world? Or for us, the people we relate to?

Draw me out

Sometimes I feel stupid talking to you because it often crosses my mind that you might not exist. But I do talk to you, and maybe that means I believe in you enough for the moment.

I need to ask you something.

Someone at church the other day asked you to “draw our worship from us”. It really helped me think about it. I always just stand there in church trying to sing, trying to worship, to feel and I don’t get anywhere. I don’t know what worship is, and I can’t make myself feel it.

But God I know that our whole life is supposed to be worship, and I want that to be what my life is like, but I can’t do it.

Please would you draw my worship from me? Take my life – my stuff, my friendships, my work and make it yours. Draw out of all that a life of worship to you. I want to do it, but all I can do is get up, drink tea, drive somewhere, whatever. I can’t make it worship, but I want to live inside you, and I know you can help. Will you?

Giving up

I say let me never be complete. I say let me never be content. I say deliver me from Swedish furniture. I say deliver me from clever art. I say deliver me from clear skin and perfect teeth. I say you have to give up. I say evolve and let the chips fall where they may.

Recently I have felt the need to give up to God. To surrender. To sacrifice myself, maybe.

I read recently the bit where Jesus says we should take on his yoke (Matthew 11.29-30), and I feel like I’m starting to have some way of understanding that.

When I give up to God I feel free.

What? Weird, I know, but I do – when I give him control I feel free of the “yoke” – the weight of trying to do things which are impossible, like controlling my life and doing the right thing every time.

The other day I said to God in the morning that I gave that whole day to him and he could use me for whatever he wanted. I spent most of the afternoon locked in a really unpleasant argument about Christianity with some of my colleagues, which left me pretty bruised, but which I think was what God wanted me to do that day (I didn’t start the conversation at all). What could be more relieving for a Christian than feeling that God is going to guide you the way he wants you to go?

That kind of bittersweet experience is exactly what I get from Jesus’ stuff about the yokes – you give up one yoke to take on another, but it’s better than the first one, but it’s still a yoke, etc.

This is going to sound pretty weird to some people, and it’s certainly a new thing for me to trust God that he wants the best for me, and I’m sure it won’t last, but hey, maybe you should try giving up to God.

In a way it is quite like the quote above from Fight Club. The relief of letting go and letting the chips fall as they may, of giving up trying to control and allowing God to work around you – it’s good when I do it.

Of course it lasts about 5 minutes for me before I start prising back control, but we all have to start somewhere, right?

So every morning I say the same thing to God – I give you today and you can use me how you like, and I try to mean it, and I wait and see how the chips fall…

Imitators Of Paul

From what I remember from the local Parish newsletters; Apostle Paul
alongside Peter is represented by the “Book” along the
“Sword.”
Ah, he was the one who could be anything and everything to everyone
and anyone who were bound by Laws and different cultures away from godly worship.
Babel, confusion or lost to Darkness.

Peter described him as having the grace of wisdom – difficult for
babes without understanding – given to him.
That was the Paul of Tarsus a
man versed in Law.

But these days it is wise to admit we know nothing.
Wiser still to hate to know anything,

Sensitivity has become a curse to society
And conscience that small voice is suffocated every season,
the Old Paul.

The Shakespeares of today have locked their own selves in their ego-
asylums with heartfelt Sacrificial poses;
Asking,
Knocking,
Seeking to be swallowed for all their nerves twinges
into a new kind of Paul, a Mr. Hyde kind to ease the imbalances.
A neo-paulinelike creation. In vogue without introspection.

Already! This is the age for your liberal legacies! This is that peak
of knowledge that the Romans killed for! This is your world growing
smaller and progressing still with no structures nor insurances to bind us.
These are not the means of which Luther had hoped for when he
nailed those “95 Theses” to exercise your faith!
But alas! Now behold, this new creation living re-inventions of Paul.
A “Post-Modern Paul,” a Paul versed choice.
In “mass choices” of himself, who he is and what the world can make of him.

Where art thou O’ Interior man? To be saying today: “be imitators of
me as I was of Christ.” (1 Cor. 11:1).

Where art thou O’ wise man? That once said I am what I am?

Depression in Christians: Essay by a Teen

(I originally wrote this essay in a fit of frustration and also because I needed a subject for my Psychology final exam paper. Needless to say, I think I pretty much fulfilled both needs in that respect. Also, if you’d like to learn more about the connections between faith and depression check out the “Depression and Religion” section of www.depressionforums.com.)

Depression in Christians

By Meagan Gann

There is something uncanny about the medical condition called depression, namely in that it is inherently indiscriminate and respects no persons, afflicting the very greatest individuals as well as the most humble. Teenagers, senior citizens, and even small children can be affected at any moment by what is commonly referred to as “the dark night of the soul.” This, naturally, would also include ardent believers in Jesus Christ. As a Christian who suffers from depression herself, I hope to dispel the stigma, myths, and misunderstandings surrounding this disease. I hope to communicate to others that it is not a disease in the conventional sense, one that can be effectively treated with pills and then forgotten about. Depression is simultaneously a spiritual, biological, emotional, and physical disorder, characterized by intensely complex psychological issues. It is not, as the authors of A New Light on Depression would put it, merely a “case of negative self-talk,” or a “spiritual weakness,” or “unresolved anger.” I intend to bring others to adequate awareness of depression by highlighting its most fundamental definition, its myths and misunderstandings, and its spiritual gifts and benefits.

What depression actually happens to be is often confused by believers and nonbelievers alike. According to its most common definition, it is a “down” period in which an otherwise healthy person is feeling glum or unhappy. Positive external events often improve their moods, however; and they quickly forget whatever it was that made them unhappy. In a case of clinical depression, however, a person continues to suffer no matter how many good things come his or her way. Other symptoms include undereating (or overeating), feelings of worthlessness, inability to enjoy formerly pursued activities, recurring thoughts of suicide, lack of energy, and/or existential anxiety. Depression.com outlines the four types of depression: dysthymic/developmental depression, situational depression (also called adjustment disorder), spiritual/existential depression, and clinical/biological depression.

According to several articles on the christianteens.about.com website, “sometimes the Christian view of mental illness is distressing.” A New Light on Depression’s Harold Koenig and David Biebel agree, going on to add that “most Christians don’t want to be reminded that life isn’t one long, long climb up Sunshine Mountain, faces all aglow, with God handing out smiley-face stickers along the way.”Because of this many Christians will deny that their depressed brethren really have anything wrong with them. They often hold the suffering person at arm’s length and refuse to acknowledge his or her pain, as evidenced by such remarks as “How can you be this way when you have so much going for you?” and “Well, listen to everything that’s happened to me this month”; and I’m not depressed!” Obviously, these people “aren’t projecting their own self-pity onto the depressed person or they really don’t care about that person’s needs,” write Koenig and Biebel. To that end, many myths and misunderstandings concerning depression among believers have been proliferating for the last several years. Most prominent among them is the erroneous assumption that depressed Christians “have weak faith” or “have not properly repented of their sins.” This could not be farther from the truth; as many whom are depressed have confessed sins both real and imaginary to God many times, to no avail. Because they are unable to feel God’s reassuring presence, they think that they are failures as Christians; and similar accusations from undepressed believers only serve to expound upon their guilt. On the other end of the spectrum, non-religious people tend to accuse their depressed brethren of “feeling sorry for yourself” and that “you’re just depressed because you want to be depressed.” These beliefs, too, are false, and probably only serve to worsen the situation because they suggest that mental illness is simply a “mood” that one can “snap out of.” The webmaster of Wing of Madness could not have put it better when she said: “Depression is an illness” would you ask someone to ‘snap out of’ high blood pressure or diabetes?” To that end, she warns, “Platitudes do not cure depression.”

What does cure depression is a combination of psychotherapy (talk therapy) and antidepressant medication. There is absolutely no shame in all in treating yourself this way, as the Bible does not forbid medicine use of any kind (and, moreover, encourages people to keep themselves both mentally and physically healthy). And while depression is a terribly debilitating disease that prevents others from walking through life with confidence and joy, it does have its benefits, especially in regards to one’s religious life. Joanne Blum, a Ph.D. who struggled with depression for years, affirms this point in her article “Food for New Thought – Spiritual Gifts of Depression”: “Despair has been my greatest teacher. As I think back on the serious depressions of my life, which for me have come in 5- to 7-year cycles, I realize that all the big growth spurts of my spiritual life have come from those dark sojourns – and the grace that brought me through them.” In one of her worst periods of depression, “I found myself at a Religious Science church where a healing meditation was in progress… and I made a life decision, once and for all, to try God. Such is the tentative beginning of faith.” She concludes that, “Perhaps it is especially in hell that we lea God’s grace is with us because we must dive deep for it. Because we are motivated to raise our voices and ask for it. And because we finally have enough empty space within, vacated by our egotistical all-knowingness, to receive it.” In other words, depression renders a person into such an empty shell of his or her former self that God can finally come along and fill the vacuum with Himself.

I wish that no one ever had to experience the “slough of despond” (as John Bunyan describes depression in Pilgrim’s Progress); but the fact remains that people do, and that the rest of us must work to be compassionate and understanding while searching for an effective treatment. Depression is such a complex disease that no two people will ever respond in the exact same way to such medication as Zoloft or Prozac. It primarily stems from spiritual, biological, emotional, and physical issues (as evidenced by the many different types of depression out there).

Hopefully I have brought Christians to a better understanding of depression by outlining its basic definition, its ever-prevalent myths, and its religious benefits.

Depression in Christians

By Meagan Gann

There is something uncanny about the medical condition called depression, namely in that it is inherently indiscriminate and respects no persons, afflicting the very greatest individuals as well as the most humble. Teenagers, senior citizens, and even small children can be affected at any moment by what is commonly referred to as “the dark night of the soul.” This, naturally, would also include ardent believers in Jesus Christ. As a Christian who suffers from depression herself, I hope to dispel the stigma, myths, and misunderstandings surrounding this disease. I hope to communicate to others that it is not a disease in the conventional sense, one that can be effectively treated with pills and then forgotten about. Depression is simultaneously a spiritual, biological, emotional, and physical disorder, characterized by intensely complex psychological issues. It is not, as the authors of A New Light on Depression would put it, merely a “case of negative self-talk,” or a “spiritual weakness,” or “unresolved anger.” I intend to bring others to adequate awareness of depression by highlighting its most fundamental definition, its myths and misunderstandings, and its spiritual gifts and benefits.

What depression actually happens to be is often confused by believers and nonbelievers alike. According to its most common definition, it is a “down” period in which an otherwise healthy person is feeling glum or unhappy. Positive external events often improve their moods, however; and they quickly forget whatever it was that made them unhappy. In a case of clinical depression, however, a person continues to suffer no matter how many good things come his or her way. Other symptoms include undereating (or overeating), feelings of worthlessness, inability to enjoy formerly pursued activities, recurring thoughts of suicide, lack of energy, and/or existential anxiety. Depression.com outlines the four types of depression: dysthymic/developmental depression, situational depression (also called adjustment disorder), spiritual/existential depression, and clinical/biological depression.

According to several articles on the christianteens.about.com website, “sometimes the Christian view of mental illness is distressing.” A New Light on Depression’s Harold Koenig and David Biebel agree, going on to add that “most Christians don’t want to be reminded that life isn’t one long, long climb up Sunshine Mountain, faces all aglow, with God handing out smiley-face stickers along the way.”Because of this many Christians will deny that their depressed brethren really have anything wrong with them. They often hold the suffering person at arm’s length and refuse to acknowledge his or her pain, as evidenced by such remarks as “How can you be this way when you have so much going for you?” and “Well, listen to everything that’s happened to me this month”; and I’m not depressed!” Obviously, these people “aren’t projecting their own self-pity onto the depressed person or they really don’t care about that person’s needs,” write Koenig and Biebel. To that end, many myths and misunderstandings concerning depression among believers have been proliferating for the last several years. Most prominent among them is the erroneous assumption that depressed Christians “have weak faith” or “have not properly repented of their sins.” This could not be farther from the truth; as many whom are depressed have confessed sins both real and imaginary to God many times, to no avail. Because they are unable to feel God’s reassuring presence, they think that they are failures as Christians; and similar accusations from undepressed believers only serve to expound upon their guilt. On the other end of the spectrum, non-religious people tend to accuse their depressed brethren of “feeling sorry for yourself” and that “you’re just depressed because you want to be depressed.” These beliefs, too, are false, and probably only serve to worsen the situation because they suggest that mental illness is simply a “mood” that one can “snap out of.” The webmaster of Wing of Madness could not have put it better when she said: “Depression is an illness” would you ask someone to ‘snap out of’ high blood pressure or diabetes?” To that end, she warns, “Platitudes do not cure depression.”

What does cure depression is a combination of psychotherapy (talk therapy) and antidepressant medication. There is absolutely no shame in all in treating yourself this way, as the Bible does not forbid medicine use of any kind (and, moreover, encourages people to keep themselves both mentally and physically healthy). And while depression is a terribly debilitating disease that prevents others from walking through life with confidence and joy, it does have its benefits, especially in regards to one’s religious life. Joanne Blum, a Ph.D. who struggled with depression for years, affirms this point in her article “Food for New Thought – Spiritual Gifts of Depression”: “Despair has been my greatest teacher. As I think back on the serious depressions of my life, which for me have come in 5- to 7-year cycles, I realize that all the big growth spurts of my spiritual life have come from those dark sojourns – and the grace that brought me through them.” In one of her worst periods of depression, “I found myself at a Religious Science church where a healing meditation was in progress… and I made a life decision, once and for all, to try God. Such is the tentative beginning of faith.” She concludes that, “Perhaps it is especially in hell that we lea God’s grace is with us because we must dive deep for it. Because we are motivated to raise our voices and ask for it. And because we finally have enough empty space within, vacated by our egotistical all-knowingness, to receive it.” In other words, depression renders a person into such an empty shell of his or her former self that God can finally come along and fill the vacuum with Himself.

I wish that no one ever had to experience the “slough of despond” (as John Bunyan describes depression in Pilgrim’s Progress); but the fact remains that people do, and that the rest of us must work to be compassionate and understanding while searching for an effective treatment. Depression is such a complex disease that no two people will ever respond in the exact same way to such medication as Zoloft or Prozac. It primarily stems from spiritual, biological, emotional, and physical issues (as evidenced by the many different types of depression out there).

Hopefully I have brought Christians to a better understanding of depression by outlining its basic definition, its ever-prevalent myths, and its religious benefits.

An Unpopular Faith :Christianity

When I read the words of the crucified Christ that tells me to “abandon all that I own” I have found it difficult to relate to what others in practical terms believe of this teaching? In our personal fellowship with God what has really been done to liberate ourselves with the wise instructions in these texts of our culturally rich society?

The thought of abandoning or “forsaking all” has not escaped me, and I am sure all of us called at some time or the other have been blessed to contemplate the thoughts of total dependence on God that is if we are honest with ourselves; some do dare.

If the question – to forsake all then live by faith – has come for us at least once, then shouldn’t we consider ourselves blessed to have had the opportunity to come closer to God with God’s mercy? Mercy, because we may not have returned Him the favour of our sincerity in response.

Any one who has read the a fair bit of Mathew (18:28,29) and Luke (12:32 & 14:33) would see repeatedly passages of salvation referring to “only those who forsake are the faithful and are free.”

Is this what Christianity is really is? (Mtw 6:19, 21 24-30).

Are we who are called to be Christians ready or have already forsaken all material affection and that which we rely on for the spreading of the Gospel and the witnessing of Jesus? As other Christ(s)?

If not, then I suppose Christianity is not really as popular as we are lead to believe and is rarely even practiced in material rich nations. I think C.S. Lewis said something about that once which struck me as true. He said: “It’s not that many have become Christians and found that it failed them, but more that they haven’t or couldn’t make the effort to practice (true) Christianity.” I personally don’t know of many people even the most honest who would forsake all for the convictions they felt about what Jesus meant and said according to the Gospels. Though I have known someone who would forsake all for their hard-line opinions (and risk jail for it), which comes close, but not many have I seen to count forsaking all as a valuable wise decision for their faith.

So what does this mean? That we didn’t take the Gospels literally? That we didn’t take him literally? And if so are we the cause of our own disbelief and or miserable lack of faith because we have not tried with grace true Christianity? This unpopular faith?

Well, those who want to hear something real,
Looking for something true
If you have come to refute
This one is for you!

R.Olarn

http://www.geocities.com/resolution1948/index.html

After the burning

After the burning

he steps towards me with his blowtorch

sanctification

and i run away again

of course i dont like the pain

but there is something more

when he is finished fine tuning me with pokers

will i still be around to see the result

what

what will be left

Living in Liberty

Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom, thus sayeth the Lord. I used to be afraid to use that phrase, “Thus sayeth the Lord,” but as I grow in my walk with Jesus–knowing His will, love, and plans for us believers–the more firm I stand in saying that in Jesus, we are free.

It’s easy to say we are free from the consequences of sin and eternal death, for that comes with the territory of accepting Jesus as our Lord and personal Savior. But what about freedom in other areas? We read the Word of God and sing the songs about freedom and deliverance, but are we reading and singing something not yet obtained? Why do we still feel bound?

We are free, thus sayeth the Lord. We know that we were once slaves, but the Lord sets captives free if they call on Him. Let’s look at Ezekiel 46: 16-17:

“16 This is what the Lord has said: If the ruler gives a property to any of his sons, it is his heritage and will be the property of his sons; it is theirs for their heritage. 17 And if he gives a part of his heritage to one of his servants, it will be his till the year of making free, and then it will go back to the ruler; for it is his sons’ heritage, and is to be theirs.”

We read in Scripture numerous times that our inheritance in Jesus is not second best material, but instead Jesus traded our sins and guilt in exchange for His inheritance of eternal life and glory. What was once the Son of God’s, Jesus, is also our’s, the Children of God.

There is no guilt. There is no shame. Every tear from our eyes, He will dry (Revelation 21:4). We are free in Jesus, thus sayeth the Lord.

We are, according to the Word, free from habits, depression, sorrow, anger, immorality, lonliness, and the list continues. According to Scripture, that is.

We are not only free from bondage, but we are also free to things, such as being free to worship, free to express ourselves, free to forgive, free to be who we were created to be. If you’re 27 and are very youthful, you are free to be youthful. God made you that way, so you shouldn’t question God’s sovereignity by trying to be something else. Express yourself. Let your cup overflow, and being led and filled with the Holy Spirit, be free in Jesus.

Freedom, thus sayeth the Lord. We are no longer slaves, so a slave inheritance is no longer your’s. We must acknowledge that we are now new creations in Jesus. The old has died and the new is come. You are free. I am free. The first believer that comes to your mind right now is free. The believer after that – they are free, as well.

Our faith isn’t regulated by do’s and don’ts, but rather by a passionate persuit for our risen Deliverer, the One who stirs our hearts with a frustrated love. How does He do that? By intimate worship of Him, is He able to commune with you and then breathe His adoration and will into your life.

It is not God’s will that we live as captives. I say this for two reasons: One, He loves you and paid too great a sacrifice, and two, His glory should be displayed as a divine revelation in and through our lives.

Thus sayeth the Lord: Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.

Steve Hudson is a layman for Souled Out Ministries Iowa, based out of the Magpie Coffeehouse. You can read his blog.

The Bride’s Near Future – Part 2 of 3

I believe there’s coming a time that Christianity will go through a second reformation.

There is an underground move of the Holy Spirit that is calling people to one unified purpose, and it’s like that of a spiritual militia. Like disgruntled, seemingly over-patriotic wilderness residents, there is an uprising of individuals who are no longer content with religion and traditional complacency. The stuff of earth is not important to these people, and they’re becoming resentful that supposed wise clergy is telling them otherwise.

People’s hearts are being stirred with passion for the King, and doing only the King’s will. These people are getting back to the basics of the old time Christianity, the Christianity that you find in the Bible; and they are setting their hearts on the eternal and spiritual, rather than temporary and earthly. Seeking God’s Kingdom requires us to see things in a worldview outside of what can be seen, heard, tasted or touched. Can a clay pot actually know the Potter’s mind and will? Let alone, can the pot know anything MORE than the Potter? This is impossible.

If you are a person who sees religion as a dead thing, or you just FEEL that there is something more to the services you attend, YOU ARE RIGHT! The times around the corner will be exciting times for the Christian Church! That is, people knowing Jesus personally and are developing an intimate relationship with Him without reservation. Church is not a building or a system or a set time of day. It is the believers themselves, and the group of believers they commune and walk with. THIS is the Church. THIS is the Body of Christ. It is very important that you are aware of this now. It is important that you keep an ear open to what God is doing with His Bride. “It’s almost like Jesus actually believes He purchased His Bride,” as Pastor David Hogan would say, jokingly sarcastic.

The refreshing move of God around the corner will blow our minds, and shake our worldviews. We all have our views based on nature and nurture, what we’ve been taught and what we have experienced. Allow me to tell you a recent, short story.

Sensing these things, and also reading up on some of these thoughts on websites that have to do with the “emerging church” and the “second reformation,” I’ve been drinking in the experiences of past revivals and renewals, such as the Great Awakening, Welsh Street, Pentecost, and even recent moves like Pensacola, Toronto, Australia and Kansas City. Amidst taking notes a few weeks back, I felt the Lord strongly impress in my spirit, “Why are you preparing for My move of Tomorrow by reading the newspaper clippings of Yesterday?”

How can I prepare for something I have never seen before? Like the military, I may know certain combat skills, know my weapon well, and have a sergeant who’s integrative, but if I don’t know the territory well and everything involved, everything I DO know amounts to nothing. What we know now about past revivals, the empowerment of the Holy Spirit, and the depths and dimensions of the spiritual realm, will amount to nothing when God pours this fresh oil on us. It will confuse us. It will baffle us. It will cause many to fall away. It will, most importantly, question our own walk with the Lord and our purposes.

We will basically have to choose if this is of God and what will we do with it. There will be stuff, I believe, that will not be found biblically; because Jesus promised that we will do greater things than He. There will be renewed hearts for the Lord. True believers, not merely those who are church attendees, will fall passionately and deeply in love with Jesus, and will be filled with the Spirit, and become bold and confident in their ministry to others in need. We might as well call it “Pentecost Part 2” because of the newness and empowering move of God in every TRUE Christian’s life.

There will not be legalism or stagnant religion anymore within this emerging group of believers. God’s creation is SO dear to Him that He sent His own Son to die for the justification of His creation and His holiness. Are we not to expect the God, Lord of the universe, to desire to see His bride pure? Are we so arrogant to think that God doesn’t expect us to see things as He sees them? Are we not to desire the Kingdom of God to be revealed in our own lives, given that we are living testimonies of His sovereignty and faithfulness?

The time is coming! We cannot really be prepared, but we can be open. 1 Kings 19: 11-12 speaks of the move of God’s Spirit being a Wind, then an Earthquake, then a Fire. After these things tore everything apart, THEN God’s soft voice came. Our nice hairdos will be messed, our worldview will shake, and our religious works will burn up. Then the voice of God will speak to His people. Hebrews 12:26 promises this for the Body’s future.

Who are we to deny what God can do? Who are we to put God in a box? Who are we neatly put His Spirit between the pages of 66 chapters? We welcome You, Jesus! We embrace Your move! Come and woo us, Lord Jesus!

Steve Hudson (Souled Out) NocturnalApostle@Hotmail.com

I see Christian imagery from a distance

When I see the latest ad-cover for a film, or an album cover-design of recognition, I often give it a silent nod in response. A nod of knowledge, because out-there to the public rude as it may be, out-there I behold a mark of the product that is in promotion, and this is culture. We, inner-city folk like to call this -“representing the scene.” Down in S.London.

Unconscious and consciously I feel convicted to react or relate what is seen to something I have experienced or someone I have heard experience what relates to what we see in these ad-covers and designs. As I have said this is consumer-interaction, its culture.

Now when I see Christian art Christian representation of the apostolic times you know the type of medieval painted fashion with which the “Orthodox Church” surrounds itself and which also has been accepted as the standard artistic portrayal of Christian themes and characters worldwide. Whether its in pamphlets or in buildings this type of impression of the saints life, when I see this sort faith-based representation thrown my way I can’t help but say that I feel… well I don’t know what to feel, in fact I don’t what I am expected to feel, and who expects me to feel the way I am suppose to.

Okay some may accept these Christian-themed images because they seem so standard and recognised. So that I should feel from the image what tones it sets of the subject. But what can I feel from what I get? If its Saint -Jerome by the cave, I should feel from the image what I know of St. Jerome, correct? Or better, if its St. Peter and John by the temple as described in “acts”, then I should feel from the image their miracles described in the acts of the apostles, correct? And that from this I should altogether be convicted with passion and a higher sense of awareness with the brother-and-sisterhood of Christianity, correct? Not so in this case.

I must personally admit that with me this is not the case, very far from it in fact. The result of what I feel is not an attraction to the subject as such, but more of a little sting of disaffection, quite alienating altogether so to speak. I do not feel the warmth to my faith-related subjects in its art-forms the same way I do to cultural products in promotions, and the icon that represent those products. I could say that I feel disaffection pretty much for most -medieval art- anyway, but a lot of what they painted then, that has become the standard now mostly have to do with Christ or gospels. Some who painted were not even believers but painted faith-related subjects as an interest, I certainly hope not for the “heck” of it. The fact is that if medieval fashion in art was popular art and culture back then, hasn’t popular art moved on since in relation to the popular culture of today? But as far as Christian-faiths are concerned the medieval fashion of art still remains the same, those same icons and representation we take as grounded are still the ones used to portray and seek emotions within us believers of now, which I feel is disaffecting or distancing me.

Now I am a believer in what was spoken in the Gospels and by the prophets of God. I want to be as a much of follower of the Christian way as I will, but when I see that image of Him on the cross it pains me to admit it, (if I feel this then the All-Knowing God must also know too), that I can’t help but not share in the passion of His sacrifice on seeing Him portrayed on that cross. Inside me convictions are lost, and there is no impact when I see it the way I feel there should be. And I leave asking what does the image of him on that cross have to do with me, if I can’t feel anything or the Christ in me remains silent when I see it?

Because let’s admit it, if I were to be given a pamphlet or a message from a Christian what is normally the first thing I see? The image.

I am bewildered and hope that this is not what other believers feel when they view His sacrifice for all mankind in this image-based world.

Peace, from a Prisoner of Consciencern

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